Monday, February 18, 2013

Needs to be Said

Along with my terrible addiction to reality TV, I also enjoy talent based shows such as American Idol, The Voice, XFactor & even Americas Got Talent. It amazes me each year how much new talent appears at auditions and you become a fan of another great Star in the making. That being said, these shows are also becoming known for allowing "ratings talent" to steal the spots of true up and coming artists. These are the people that somehow make it through all the vigorous prejudging & make their way to the celebrity judges. In some cases, these same talentless individuals even make it to the next level in the competition which is supposed to be for people that actually have TALENT!

American Idol this year has become a circus of individuals that CLEARLY are just unique by appearance alone and in fact couldn't hold an actual musical note even if they were lip sincing a well known artists track in the background. Now I'm all for a good laugh but PLEASE, let's get real, these shows are for TALENT not people who are talented in their own minds only. I don't want to name names but there are at least a minimum of 20+ guys/gals in the first cut of American Idol who didn't at all deserve to be there in the first place. If you want a show for TRUE VOCALISTS then PLEASE DO SO don't allow tone, pitch and musically deaf individuals take the place of TRUE UP AND COMING TALENT.

The Voice chair rounds seem to be a bit more picky which I like but I now know two individuals personally that have TREMENDOUS TALENT yet were unable to get past all the pre screening judges in order to advance to that level. Some less qualified vocalists got through to that all important next step & all I can attribute that too is shows such as the Voice, American Idol & XFactor are looking for moldable talent that they can use as their money making puppets until they become big enough to escape the ties and become their own artist.

Both American Idol & The Voice have prevented the world from meeting one of the most talented vocalist I've met in my life, Gaetano. He is easily found on Twitter @g_got_soul or you can truly enjoy his music at www,reverbnation.com/officialgmusic or www.YouTube.com/officialgmusic either way even if he isn't your favorite genre of music just take a moment, close your eyes and listen. You will hear a TRUE VOCALIST. I can't stress enough how talented G is yet he keeps getting cut from shows supposedly designed to help individuals like himself, this I just don't get! I think its time the producers of these shows get their acts together and let the REAL talent go through instead of the weak toneless singers.

I'd like to truly challenge the TV judging world to convince me that Gaetano isn't an up and coming vocal artist who doesn't deserve world class recognition. This means the following individuals: Simon Cowell, Randy Jackson, Ceelo Green, Blake Shelton, Adam Levine these are the only judges I feel that I take seriously, the ones who are REALLY INTERESTED IN TRUE TALENT! Take a moment gentleman to go to one of Gaetano's links and you listen for yourself I am sure that you will hear the Star quality in Gaetanos voice and realize that he needs to be heard on a world platform.

In closing I'd like to say that when I'm passionate about something, I am relentless in trying to get my opinion heard. I ONLY get this way when I truly feel what I'm fighting for is 100% valid. Truly listen to Gaetano and you'll see what I mean. Ciao for now

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Crazy Twists in Life

My life has always been a rather unique journey with hills, valleys and some downright unusual coincedences. I think its this trend that makes my life so fascinating at times. I'd like to reflect on the most current of details that in some sense or another just blows my mind.

I was diagnosed in July 2011 with a central nervous system disorder & an autoimmune issue which seems to run adjacent to my syndrome, Dysautonomia. When it was determined the severity of the syndrome based on all my ongoing symptoms made me a prime target victim of this "sudden death syndrome" it changed a lot of the ways I always viewed myself as invisible. I now go to bed praying to awaken the next day to beat this syndrome yet another day. So far I'm winning but its taking a toll on me both physically & mentally.

My kids are truly my inspiration, that's an obvious fact. Its their smiling faces that make me fight back the daily pain I have to ensure they have the best day with their dad they can possibly have. Along with my children, I accidentally & I truly mean ACCIDENTALLY awoke a musical appreciation side of myself that has laid dorment some 20+ years. There are some people I'd like to acknowledge that through different events, my life has taken on a different path so to speak in both the musical appreciation as well as social media.

With the interest I had in watching #RHONJ due to the fact it is filmed so close to my home town as well as my family having mutual friends with cast members of the show, it was this show that brought me back to Twitter. Originally to follow Teresa Guidice & Caroline Manzo, I then found a new addiction to the once perceived notion that Twitter was stupid, I was now hooked. I began to add people based on my strong opinions of who I'd want as friends if I was truly in their circle of friendship.

Well along comes a show called Carfellas. Well I can totally relate to this show, I was in the automotive field for 30 years & these guys are fucking hysterical as well as being Italian! I added them on my Twitter list and something I never expected happened, they actually interact with their fans!! I don't mean like a quick RT, I'm talking full comments, interest in what's been asked of them etc... This was very cool! To this day, even after their show was dropped, the cast of Carfellas, Mike D, Mario & even Mike's wife Nanci D still take time out of their day to communicate with fans. Wouldn't be long others like Giovanni from MamasBoysoftheBronx would also interact daily and so many other "REAL" reality people & friends of those people to where I feel my Twitter family is like my extended Italian family!

I then met the Dutchess! Not only one of the most beautiful woman I've ever met but she's also a Hip Hop/Soul/R&B/Rap artist who I find to have some real talent. She can be enjoyed at www.reverbnation.com/deebabee for those of you who appreciate that cut of music. By meeting her my ears are WIDE open & I'm following/meeting all kinds of artists in person, on social networks, even in the oddest places (overheard a waitress singing acapela at Olive Garden) I did a standing ovation for that one, she was awesome.

Now who am I & what musical background do I have? Professionally......none!! What makesmy opinion matter? It matters to me to be upfront & honest about how someone sings, if iI think you need work or I think you are a Superstar its an opinion!! I will say that regardless of the vocal show I'm watching, XFactor, The Voice or American Idol, I can usually pic top 10 right from the first auditions and even have picked the top three remaining on said shows. This is my feelings on their talent not at all decided because one of the judges swayed my decision. I hear what I hear and I've been pretty accurate on who finishes on top. I don't waste time blowing smoke up someones ass pretending they are good when I can hear clearly they just don't have it. You'd be surprised how many up & coming vocalists ask me to listen to their music on Twitter. I'm not by ANY means a music professional nor am I the go to person for approval yet my opinions on Twitter have brought forth people to sought me out so I can decide how I feel about their music. What a twist of life for me! I meet Dutchess & now its opened a new chapter in my life towards music that I thought I had shut forever!

I wrote some music after meeting her as well, stuff that may suck to some which I'm OK with, never said I was Lionel Richie or David Foster, I'm just a guy who put some words on paper & people that read it thought I should pursue getting it produced. (I still haven't, I'm not convinced its good enough, I'm my toughest judge). As for singing, after completely walking away from it for over 20+ years, scale of 1 to 10, I give myself a 3 at best. I've lost the range & control I once had & I'm pitchy which DRIVES ME NUTS! So if you are a contestant on one of the vocal shows and you are pitchy, I'm the guy wanting to throw the remote at the TV & I'm yelling at you to please stop singing! I have a good ear for what's right & if you give me goosebumps when you sing it usually means that you WILL be a star. (Kelly Clarkston, Jennifer Hudson, Jessica Sanchez ALL gave me goosebumps) This leads me to where I intended to direct this blog, to a chance meeting of a real Star on Twitter.

One day, a post from a Twitter Buddy entitled something to the effect "my cuz has amazing voice" my Bud Frankie Eyes from TwoFranks&aMike , uploads an excerpt of a vocal performance by an AMAZING vocal talent Gaetano. It was a short few bars but I have to tell ya, I WAS BLOWN AWAY!  It gave me goosebumps & I remember listening to it numerous times just wondering why this talent had not been discovered. Over a short period of time I come across the artist himself, Gaetano who goes by just G for the most part. I heard another song which even though I wasn't familiar with the song he chose I was just captivated by his talent & immediately following that performance which should still be available at www.YouTube.com/officialgmusic I began to flood Twitter with the link to his music. I am truly impressed with this artist to the point I go on Twitter rants to get well known artists/producers to just take a listen. There is NO WAY I'm wrong about this guy, HE IS TRUE TALENT & WILL HIT THE BIG TIME MARK MY WORDS! Its just finding that correct platform of entry to carry on the musical dream.

I'm not one that likes to take credit for anything I might do or say to help someone out, its not in my nature to request recognition for something I believe in. I do the things I do because I want to do them for someone & quite honestly, I'd rather just be a loud voice of support but be invisible when the spotlight is near so the person I'm promoting has ALL the attention. Thats how I truly roll & anyone of my friends that truly know me know I'll always put others before me before I do for myself.

Well tonight I was truly humbled by something G (Gaetano) included in his artist bio. The fact that I was so relavent to him to specifically name me in his bio really made my day, my year! I was not expecting it nor did I EVER expect I deserved ANY recognition for just being a fan of someone I truly believe has a long future in music. Words cannot express how great that made me feel & I want to thank G for acknowledging me (something you didn't have to do) and let him know that no matter where his craft takes him, I'll be a fan regardless of who knows it or not. I'm not a fair weather friend, I'm there up or down, that's what its about, keep it real!

In closing I'd like to point out that even though I'm plagued with a non treatable medical syndrome that has a track record for consuming its victims, I'm ALWAYS optimistic there isa tomorrow & i certainly dont approve of sympathy for me. If I'm OK with what I have, then just put your energy towards living with me, not feeling sorry for what might be. Its all about attitude people, positive attitude brings about positive results! Doctors told me I might not see my daughter turn 2 after I was diagnosed, my symptoms were so escalated. NEWS FLASH she turns 4 later this year so who's getting the last laugh? Before I go, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND you check out www.revernation.com/officialgmusic as soon as you possibly can. I think you'll be as impressed as I am! Ciao for now!

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Preparing For More Doctors

I find that one of the things I miss most since my divorce is my medical insurance. I had an amazing coverage with awesome doctors & now, its like starting all over. My insurance ran out in March 2012 so for almost a year now I have been gambling on my health something I certainly don't condone but am guilty of doing. When you have an ANS disorder, its essential to see a doctor every five weeks or so in order to see the path the syndrome is taking. Constant medication change such as dosage and or the medication itself are the only way to ensure some quality of life overall.

With prescriptions that exceeded $1200.00 a month, I opted to roll the dice & see if I could find other ways to treat this on my own without medical intervention. Admittedly, I did well for awhile with the help of the Dutchess however, as with the medication, being off medication turned up same results, the syndrome would evolve and change to where nothing I could do would help anymore.

So now after some very complex changes in my health, I'm forces back into the doctors office, a new group of doctors & perhaps see if my gambling on my health was beneficial or created yet another group of irreversible issues that could end up causing me medical failure in the future. Now I do know for fact, my chest pain issue that surfaced like 15 weeks ago was worse than any other time I had chest pains. I had never had that severe of an issue, and unlike my past issues, this one stayed aggressive for three days before letting up. It was after this that I began needing more sleep & my body always seemed fatigued. It was bad enough I chose to chew aspirin rather than go to ER like a normal person. Having had more false alarms then I could count, I just felt this was another drill my body was running so I chose to ignore the signs. According to previous EKG's, doctors still feel my bizarre EKG pattern is a result of a mild heart attack yet they are skeptical to proceed with a third catherization. Perhaps the results of a current EKG may have them singing another tune.

My kidney issues are getting worse without a doubt. Having to pass upwards of 8 stones by last count, I can honestly say this pain I have daily truly sucks! Any woman that comments "you don't know pain until you deliver a child" I can say with pinpoint accuracy "bitch, its you who doesn't know pain until you pass 5mm stone out your pee hole"! I'd gladly take child birth over kidney pain all damn day long!

The blood pressure issues......what a mess that is. Medicated or not its out of control. Not sure what they'll do with that one but I can say it will be the hardest to control. I have BP readings that would scare any nurse or doctor but should I stand or lay down I can change my BP so drastically it creates that "duh" moment for the doctor because they just don't know what to do. I do get really sick when its extremely high and I fall asleep constantly when its too low. It causes a constant amount of chest pain that for the rookie, they'd be in the hospital asap thinking this was a heart attack. Been there done that. Id like to think I know myself better than any doctor, I just hope I don't prove myself wrong by leaving my house in a black zip lock. Its gambling I know!

So Saturday morning, I get to meet the new doctor/doctors and hopefully be able to bring them up to speed promptly so I can get to the source of my current ailments that are being relentless at the moment.

In closing I'd like to say that my intentions are to be around forever BUT as a realist, I've begun to do things on the Bucket List I refused to create prior. Things change and along with change comes reality. I know I'm a ticking time bomb, I get that SO I intend to be the most prepared future corpse that's ever passed on! I'm even considering WIFI and surround sound in the coffin! They won't be calling me a stiff that's for sure, I'll be rocking even in the after life! Thanks for reading, it makes my efforts of writing crap at 215am something of meaning. Now it may be time to sleep! Ciao